It's that time of week again, the good old Healthy You Challenge check-in.
Drum roll please........I actually get to keep my "5lb Loss" button. I lost 6 pounds this last week, yea me!
Scale victory aside, I have had quite a few non scale victories as well or maybe you could call them "light bulb" moments. I've been journaling and really trying to go inwards as to why I have the eating habits I have.
During the Women of Faith conference I went to a couple of weeks ago God spoke to my heart and at least four speakers talked about weight loss or battles-what was up with that?
See, the thing that has really been weighing on me is my weight (no pun intended). I am very self-conscious about it and if I am going to be honest has put a big dent in my self-esteem. I did not just wake up one morning over weight, somewhere during elementary school my weight started to become a battle. Not bad but I was the one that was just a little bigger then everyone else, that followed through high school. As with lots of people I lost and found the weight several times but the real challenge was after having children. Heaviness runs in my family but I can't use that as an excuse because I now with God and a concentrated effort I can control this.
During the conference I heard the statement "Satan created more and says more is better." In some cases more is better: friends family, etc... Well I guess I sure fell into his hands where eating is concerned. Just had a "light bulb" moment; I'm going to post that statement in my kitchen.
When we are obsessed with something we can never get enough, I do believe that I am obsessed with food. After all my motto
is was "I don't eat to live I live to eat." In Psalms 46:10 it says "Be still and now that I am God." We need to let go and let God do His thing, give the problem to Him and listen.
I am giving him my "Shame" card, shame because I let food run my life, shame because I don't have control over that food, shame because of my physical condition and limitations. I give it to God and thank Him for it. I have and still am learning so much because of this experience.
Praise God for new days and new opportunities.