A couple of days before the study began my sister challenge me to our own version of the Biggest Loser, this contest will last 10 weeks.
When I was listening to the introduction to the Bible study I couldn't believe it was 10 weeks, the same 10 weeks as my weight loss challenge with my sis. Is that a coincidence - I'll keep you updated.
Once I accepted the challenge to lead a small group of women through this study on a weekly basis I started to pray. I prayed that God would move me aside and let the Holy Spirit take over the discussion time.
The first week came and went for the study, I was able to get my daily reading and mediation in. We didn't break into groups that first week. The second week - not so good. Life got out of control and I didn't even crack the book. By the time we meet again I was so exausted from the work week I couldn't even go. Fast forward to last Tuesday, I so wanted to be the best leader I could be. I wanted to be ready for this lesson, have an outline and know what way to lead this women during the discussion time. Tuesday night was a disaster.
We already had a stressful week ahead of us. We were having carpet put in L's room and we had to rip out the old carpet and paint before Thursday morning. I set the DVR to record the Biggest Loser and go into my bedroom to study and prepare for my Bible study group that is meeting the next night.
Big K stopped by the house, she rarely stops by during the week. She was hungry for both food and conversation - and she turned the television on LOUD. After talking to her for a few minutes, I turned back to my studies only to have Little K and L come home from Cheeri-o camp. If I thought Big K was loud - she didn't hold a candle to them. B was in L's room painting, not being a big painting fan you can imagine some of the tension in the house.
I kept thinking, "I've got to get ready for this bible study" but it wasn't happening. I texted a friend venting about the nights events and how frustrated I was, finally I gave up and closed my Bible and my study book.
The next morning as I was laying in bed thinking about how unprepared I was and God layed a heavy thought upon my heart. He reminded my that I had been praying for Him to move me aside and let the Holy Spirit lead the discussion and that's what He did. He moved me aside by not letting me prepare as I wanted to so that I had to rely on Him.
Later that day God presented me with a Bible verse:
"A fool vents all his feelings but a wise man holds them back."
I have to say I felt quit convicted.
The Bible study went great last night and I am no longer going to worry about being prepared - He already is.