Though these are great goals, through the love and grace of God my heart is weighing heaving with different goals this year. My goals are simple: to love God with all my heart, soul, and mind. To love my neighbor as myself (including the girls that have hurt my daughter -
Only through God's grace have I made it this far; when I reflect on the past there are so many times I wished I would have said/handled things differently. But they are just that - in the past.
I have listed below the lyrics of a song from Point Of Grace that addresses our past and I find it to be so true for me, that song is entitled "Heal the Wound".
I used to wish that I could rewrite history
I used to dream that each mistake could be erased
Then I could just pretendI never knew the me back then
I used to pray that You would take this shame away
Hide all the evidence of who I've been But it's the memory of
The place You brought me from That keeps me on my knees
And even though I'm free
Heal the wound but leave the scar
A reminder of how merciful You are
I am broken, torn apart Take the pieces of this heart
And heal the wound but leave the scar
I have not lived a life that boasts of anything
I don't take pride in what I bringBut I'll build an altar
withThe rubble that You've found me inAnd every stone
will singOf what You can redeem
Heal the wound but leave the scarA reminder of how merciful You are
I am broken, torn apart Take the pieces of this heart And heal the
wound but leave the scar
Don't let me forget Everything You've done for me Don't let me forget
The beauty in the suffering Heal the wound but leave the scar
A reminder of how merciful You areI am broken, torn apart
Take the pieces of this heart And heal the wound but leave the scar.
I still want/need to lose the weight, I can't help further the kingdom if I am not in the best shape/health I can be in. And I do need to keep things organized at home or that will lead to utter caoas. And as for that great novel, only God knows if one will ever materialize.
But I do know with God anything is possible.