As I look back on the past few months of my life, it's like I have been on the outside looking in. What's the deal? I've wanted to be selfish with my time and I have abandoned my daily routines and habits and replaced them with what appears to be a lazy person. Okay, on the outside it appears as if I've gotten lazy but on the inside it's not anywhere near true. If only everyone knew my true intentions - hummm.....
Slowly, ever so slowly there has been a change; like a butterfly coming out of its cocoon. I am starting to take ownership and pride in my home again. I have the desire to start putting together routines and follow them. I am a week into going off caffeine and starting to take care of myself in general.
During this time, has God been working on me; to change me like a caterpillar turning into a beautiful butterfly? What has been going on in my heart and soul? Why am I not seeing it right now? Am I growing up? I know God is working on me- we're all a continuous work in progress.
I feel like a Morning Glory, ready to bloom and turn my face to the light in the morning but as soon as it turns cloudy or dark I have a tendency to want to close back up. Not that I always allow myself to do that but it's what my inner self wants to do.
I want to be an Electric Indigo, this is a flower that blooms both during the day and night. Whether there are storms or sunshiny days in my life; with God's help I will strive to be the Electric Indigo, to bloom where He plants me, day and night, and I will rejoice in it.