Again I am drawn to:
Ecclesiastes 3:1 says:
There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under the heaven:...
I know there is a time for everything; without sorrow we would not appreciate joy, without the hard times we would not appreciate the good times. And I know that during ALL times God is walking right beside us; even carrying us from time to time. But knowing and believing all that doesn't make the darkness go away. Some would say it's because my faith is not deep enough, I don't believe that for a minute. Do I have room to improve my relationship with God, YES by leaps and bounds but the faith and trust doesn't waver.
I am going through a dark period of time right now. I've gotten to the point where I would just rather stay home and not go anywhere. I know what's causing part of it, but not sure what to do about it. Ok, yes I know what I need to do about it, but I was hoping I wouldn't have too. So I will keep praying for discernment. I am sure there is a lesson for me in all of this. God has just choosen not to reveal it to me yet, or I just plain have not opened my eyes/heart to hear the lesson.
Until that time I need to take better care of myself. In today's world we don't eat the way we should (or at lest I don't) and with all the processed food we don't get the vitamins we need. I don't take the time to exercise and I am starting to feel like one of those weebles that wobble but don't fall down, which is a good thing because I don't know if I would be able to get back up? Maybe this is part of my "darkness". Why is it during these times we know what we need to do but just can't seem to do it?
I was reading on "The Hatched Egg" about vitamin D deficiency and the importance of vitamin D as well as other suggestions for taking care of ourself. So until I can discern God's lesson in all of this I have decided to conduct a two week experiment. The experiment is taking baby steps to improving my health - spiritually, mentally, and physically. As of today, my plan is to start taking a vitamin D supplement along with my daily vitamin (which doesn't always get taken either). Stretching out my muscles everyday and walk the treadmill for at least 10 minutes a day. That last part, even though it sounds simple enough, will be a challenge because I just don't feel like doing anything once I get home.
I love having my quite time, reading devotions and reflecting on what I read. I just haven't done much of that lately. God is with me always, even if I can't get to that physical reading I want to do, I will search Him out in all areas of my life. I will look for the small signs in everyday life and reteach myself to appreciate the little things and the many blessings He gives me each and every day. I love God so deeply for His love and everything He has done/is doing/and will do that I will never be able to express it enough. But one step towards that expression will be to get my act together, put others needs ahead of mine and share the love of Christ.
I want my family and friends who are reading this to keep me accountable to my two week challenge. That is why I have posted it here, when you're the only one that knows it's easier to blow it off and just forget it.