The thing I hate most about parenting is when my child's heart is broken and there's not a darn thing I can do about it. I feel so helpless.
You carry your child for 40 weeks, at this point it is just between you, God, and your blessed child. No one one can share the moment with you when you feel your her move for the first time. You can just hug yourself and know that she is with you 24/7. After she was born I felt lost the first night, kind of empty knowing she was not in my tummy anymore, now I have to share her - what a blessing of motherhood.
When they learn to walk, they stumble and you're right there to pick them up and get them back on their feet again. When they start to learn to ride their bike and they fall , you're right there to pick them up give them a kiss, put a band aid on their boo boo and put them right back on that bike again.
When they start school you comfort the tears of fear. There is no better feeling then to have your child look up to you after a hug with a tear stained face and say see you after school. Then I leave crying.
Most of the time we can help to heal our children's pain with love, hugs, and maybe even a cookie. But today is different, this is a pain I can't make go away for my daughter - the break up of her first love. I have tears as I write this post knowing I can't make her feel any better. This is part of life - stupid boys anyway....just kidding.
After 14 months of dating the relationship was brought to an end last night, I'm hoping they will remain friends but who knows with teenagers. I am trying to be objective about the whole thing after all I am only hearing one side of the story. But it doesn't make it any easier when your daughter wakes you up at 12:30 a.m. to tell you she can't stop crying.
This was not a relationship that was going to lead to marriage. After all, she is only 15 and my husband and I knew this would not last forever. We were dreading this day actually. They couldn't go out on a date - just the two of them. They mainly watched movies and hung out at each others house, supported each other during their sporting events and talk/text for hours at a time. However, with all this in mind it doesn't stop the feelings of a 15 year old girl and her first love.
I'm sure today will be very hard for her at school. It makes me cry every time she texts me and tells me she can't stop crying. Don't think I am being cruel for making her go to school, she never asked to stay home.
I ask for prayers of strength and courage for her.
I also pray she will be able to stay focused at the swim conference that is being held tomorrow and Saturday. She is seeded to place very well and she wants to do better then she is seeded, but it will take a lot of prayer and focus to get her back into the right frame of mind. This conference is important to her because it will determine placement for state competition.
Between swim competition and Valentines day on Saturday - timing stinks....... life........
To Katie - just remember:
For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11
I love you Katie ! ! !